A state of "Mixed feeling"

it's 6:46 am CST and I should be better off sleeping. But am blogging.Emotional eruptions, u see.

You don't get sleep when you are down.You don't get sleep when you are unhappy with yourself.This fall semester has so far been not a satisfactory ride.I am not impressed with myself and how I have managed my precious grad time.Am sober and unphilosophical;)

On a positive note, I did make some great and fulfilling decisions.

1. I joined CRY TAMU as an active volunteer and have been democratically accepted for the VP position. I look forward to bring great and positive changes to our CRY TAMU chapter with my awesome team mates.

2. I bought an acoustic guitar at the start of the sem and am desperately trying to learn playing some tunes. Plain White T's -Hey there Delilah - should be the first. I am though horrible with remembering music lyrics.

3.I bought Football Sportpass this sem and have been a loyal 12th Man watching A&M winning all of their home games.Last game against OSU (24-23 win) was a thriller.

4.I have been going for most of the Women's soccer home games and am proud of our smart gals. Today is the big day!! t.u vs A&M. rank 1 vs rank5.

5.I frequent gym with passion. I love working out.

I don't wanna miss the beyond-the-study thrill of the grad life and am pretty happy with what I have been doing at this front.

BUT.A big BUT. I am not satisified with how I am doing with my academics. I have not made good progress with my research. I should have had.I am not making good use of the classroom lectures.Assignments get done invariably on the last nite to submission. Guess that's not uncommon. Usual grad life.Yet , I can try to do better but have not been putting a good effort towards that.

BUT Sem is not done yet.It's half way to its finish line and I plan to make the BEST use of the remaining time.

We come to tryst with such a state of "mixed feeling" a lot of times in our lives and in my opinion, we should use these oppurtunities to contemplate and move on with a positive note.

And so what I am doing. Hoping for good days ahead!!

Spring Sem @ TAMU

In a few words, "it was exciting but difficult".

I joined Texas A&M University, College Station in Spring 2007 and have just completed the semester.To start one's graduate studies in Spring Sem is not a great choice and I realized that early in the mid of the semester.And by the end of sem, I was already suffering.

But not everything was so gloomy and depressing.It was an exciting experience to be part of the grad studies at TAMU.It's so much different than what we have in India.Differences emanate from the societal thinking itself.The education system out here is very flexible and practical.Professors are buddies to the students and that makes the journey of a student less painful and horrible.

When I first came here, I was staying with my seniors from Roorkee. They took me around the campus and showed me the important buildings which I would often need to visit.I remember I fell in love with the campus at the first sight. The greenery, the peace, the vastness of the campus,the beautiful gals around , everything about TAMU enthralled me and I knew I was headed for a splendid two years of my life.And I am enjoying my stay!!

In the first month of my stay, I could find an on-campus job with a good monthly salary and that has helped me to live a peaceful and anxiety-free life on campus.Parents were happy to learn about my job and that made me feel even better.

But last four months have been really an uphill journey and I had moments when I would feel very depressed with my failure to manage time.I have always been a VERY BAD time manager.But the bad experience has helped me to refine myself and emerge as a better time manager. I am now more organized and less unpunctual.

Now is the "break time" and the summer semester starts from 29th of May.This semester would surely be a testing time for me and I am looking forward to the impending "Challenge". I am also kicking off my research this summer in my favourite field of research interest - AdHoc Wireless Networks and I hope to do good work.It should be an exciting summer.Summer of '07. What do u say?